145.5

As I stepped on the scale yesterday afternoon, this pretty little number came up. I try not to weigh myself often because it makes me feel very self conscious. I have always weighed more than it made sense for my body. The most I had ever seen on the scale was 168.8. This was in November.

I have always been overweight. It's been something I've been battling since I was a sophomore in high school. I always noticed that I couldn't ever wear the same pants as my friends, and only a few of their shirts fit me. They never made me feel like I was overweight, but deep down I knew I was.

My mom is very concerned with outside appearances. She has told me time and time again that I either need to lose weight or I need to wear clothes that flatter me. No tight shirts, not tight jeans. You get the picture. But, I honestly didn't think I was THAT big.
I have had a trainer for the past three summers. The first summer, I was very dedicated and ate a very strict diet. I never felt so wonderful. Then, college came, and we all knows what happens in college. The food is bad, and there is no motivation to go workout after a stressful day in class. I just let myself go, and eat whatever my heart desired.

When I was at my sister's wedding, I looked through my sister-in-laws camera. I saw that I was bigger than I had ever been before. At that moment, I decided that I was going to do what it took to get back at a healthy weight.

Immediately, I began watching what I ate. No sugar, limiting carbs (but not giving them up, because that's bad! Remember, Dad?) and replacing enriched flour for Whole Grains. I dropped 10 pounds almost instantly.


I am still trying to watch what I eat, but if there isn't a good healthy selection at Winslow, I watch my portions. I don't ask for more fries or get that dessert I've been craving. I settle for almonds or something of that nature. I've been running, though not as much as I should.


Weight isn't so much an important issue for me but, after losing that much weight, I feel so much better. My body feels refreshed. It feels awesome to climb 7 flights of stairs and not get winded, or briskly walk to class and not break a sweat. Not to mention how great it feels to have pants sagging off my body. =]

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